still moving through

I'm slightly appalled at how my emotions trip me up daily. I'm trying so hard to find a positive place to be in the midst of the emotional turmoil I'm experiencing right now. But solace escapes me... I continue to ache and ache and ache.

Everyone's been quite liberal with their comments and condolences... the cliches run fast and thick. "Time heals all wounds." "Every time a door closes..." and stuff. It doesn't help.

I've read that the stages of grief one experiences at the end of a relationship are very similar to the stages of grief one experiences when a loved one dies. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance are the anticipated stages, although not everyone experiences all of them nor do they necessarily occur in the order presented. I'm recognizing some of these in myself now.

Blind-sided by the sheer weight of my grief, I am finding it difficult to concentrate on the daily tasks and responsibilities I carry. I hope this won't go on much longer.